even if the moon fell down tonight.

I am now the proud owner of Chase Coy's brand new CD. I am the happiest person alive right now.

oh well, I tried.

Screw studying. I'm watching Finding Nemo.

nerd alert.

I just found my glasses that I've been missing for almost four years.

true statement.

If there's anything that sucks more than taking exams, it's actually trying to study for them. Oh my goodness, I am so distracted.

spontaneous photography.

help.

College is already stressing me out and I haven't even started yet.

i took the one less traveled by...

...and that has made all the difference.

in honor of a friend.

So it's almost two in the morning, and I feel inspired to write. Something that has weighed heavily on my mind lately has been how or rather if I'm making a difference with my life. Almost two months ago, I lost a friend who I had known since I was nine. At his funeral, when all his friends and family stood up to talk about what a great brother, friend, and son he was, I couldn't help but think about what people would say about me at my funeral. How would I be remembered once I was gone? Would they be good or bad things?

Once high school began, I grew apart from Matt, but I would occasionally see him in the hallway and give him a brief and hurried smile. I found it odd how after he passed, the hallways felt so much more empty, even with one less person. Even though we grew apart, I have so many great memories of Matt. I'll never forget his great sense of humor and how crazy he drove me. But in the end, he was still the sweet and caring guy who people talked about at his funeral. Matt was widely respected by his friends and family, and I learned things about him that I wish I could have seen when he was still alive.

Matt's death has been a huge wake up call for me. It's made me see that every day is precious and that nothing should be taken for granted. I've learned that life is too short to wait around for change. I want people to remember me by my positive attitude, my desire to help others, and my wish to make a difference in the world. Or rather, I want to be remembered as the one who did make a difference in the world. I've definitely noticed a difference in my outlook on life, and I encourage whoever is reading this to maybe re-evaluate some things in their life as well.

Just something to think about.

i love my kitty.

my life soundtrack.

Opening Credits:
"You Gotta Believe" by The Rocket Summer.

Waking Up:
"Wonderful" by Gary Go.

Average Day:
"Food Chain" by Eric Hutchinson.

First Date:
"The Saltwater Room" by Owl City.

Falling In Love:
"If the Moon Fell Down" by Chase Coy.

Fight Scene:

"Break Your Little Heart" by All Time Low.

Breaking Up:
"Goodbye" by Secondhand Serenade.

Getting Back Together:
"Everything" by Michael Bublé.

Secret Love:
"Secret Valentine" by We the Kings.

Life's Okay:
"Better Days" by Goo Goo Dolls.

Driving:
"Begin Again" by Colbie Caillat.

Learning A Lesson:
"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" by Relient K.

Deep Thought:
"Without Fear of Their Return" by Weaver At The Loom.

Flashback:
"Slow Down" by Chase Coy.

Happy Dance:
"Right As Rain" by Adele.

Long Night Alone:
"City" by Sara Bareilles.

Death Scene:
"Mad World" by Gary Jules.

Closing Credits:
"The Things You Were" by Deas Vail.

i want this dress.

this high life scenery, it makes me crazy.

guess what.

I love catching up with old friends. There are few things in life that are better than that.

let's pretend i'm here.

about the future.

"Without fear, there would be no accomplishment, no testing of our limitations."

you've taken me by surprise and given me new life.

It's coming up to the last week of school. I cannot believe how fast this week has flown by. Before I know it, exams will be over and done with and it will be summer. I'm going to miss everybody so much it hurts to even think about it. There have been so many people who have had such a significant impact on my life over the past four years, even if they're completely unaware of it. It's going to be hard leaving so many of them, but I'm certainly thankful for the time we had.

"No matter what happens, I'll miss the friends I've made in this town."

you've got mail.

my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.

when you're dreaming with a broken heart.

"Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?"

i should be elsewhere.

senior prediction.

"After living in New York as a famous photographer, Annie Watts will retire to become a world-class singer/songwriter. She marries a gorgeous Asian guy and continues to walk like a dinosaur and visit museums while instilling her deep hatred for calculus in her many children."

love.

imagine.

maybe it's just me.

Signing yearbooks has always been a difficult task for me. I'm not always the best with words, and especially when there's limited space to write, it's hard coming up with just the right things to say. Our yearbooks just came out this week, and it hit me that what I sign could possibly be how some people remember me for the rest of their lives. No pressure...

Why is signing a yearbook so stressful? Ha.

and i think to myself, what a wonderful world.

In loving memory of Matt.

mood.

please.

Maybe if I put my cap and gown on, it will make graduation come quicker.

reminder.

"I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

- Audrey Hepburn

love will bring you back.

dear blog.

I apologize for my sudden disappearance and lack of new entries. Please blame my crazy schedule for such inconveniences. Everything should be back to normal. I hope.

to my friends.

I was terribly wrong.

sorry to be dramatic.

I need to cry so badly right now, but I'm so exhausted, it's physically impossible.

i know i'm late.

Happy birthday, Matt. We miss you. Know you will always be remembered.

i can taste freedom.

i want sunshine.

quote.

" Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest. "

becoming untouchable.

"Your face saving promises, whispered like prayers..."

mood.

I'm just having one of those days.

friends

I truly have some of the best friends in the world. I am certainly blessed.

hearts.

lucky.

This song makes me want summer.

don't forget.

prom.

I am going to pretend like I am attending an after party for the Oscars. That's right.

please excuse this rant of mine.

So, I'm going to be selfish for a minute. But before you go and judge me (whoever is reading this, anyways), just hear me out. Sometimes, all I want is for someone to ask me what's up and what's going on in my life. I absolutely love listening to people and giving advice. Apparently I'm pretty good at it too. But sometimes I'm the one who needs to be heard. Sometimes I need advice. Guess it just doesn't occur to some people.

senior song.

"There's never a wish better than this when you only got a hundred years to live."

check.

I am feeling very productive today. Look out people, I'm coming through.

mood.

Sometimes you just have to let it go.

true story.

I remember in elementary and middle school when drama meant forgetting your lunch.

amen.

regarding my life at this point.

School is almost over yet there is still so much to be done before I can put on that cap and gown and say "I finally did it!" It's like I can see the surface of the water, but for now I will sink into a sea of chaos and, let's face it, utter confusion. The worst part is not knowing whether to be happy or sad about the whole situation. A part of me wishes time would go by as quickly as possible so I can be done with everything. But then I think about my friends and the good times I've had over the last four years. I want to cherish every last moment I have with everyone I've met here. But I have to admit, it sure makes it difficult when you're constantly running a hundred miles an hour. Perhaps the best thing to do is just slow down, count each passing day as a blessing, and enjoy what little time I have left.

i can has.

I just watched a live video chat with Chase Coy. I am in love.

mood.

so stand in the rain.

She never slows down...

i wonder what the future holds for me, it's terrifying honestly.

hope.

" You are my hiding place and my shield. I hope in your word. "

- Psalms 119 : 114

well, this is awesome.

3 am and I am still awake. I have way too much on my mind right now.

mom.

I love you, mom. Happy Mother's Day. :]

my life in 90 questions.

1. What was the highlight of your week?
Being done with AP exams.

2. Whose car were you in last?
Mine.

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Guess I'll find out.

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
Coral.

5. How long is your hair?
Medium length.

6. Are you good looking?
I don't know. Am I?

7. Last movie you watched?
Leap Year.

8. Who were you with?
My mom and sisters.

9. Last thing you ate?
A double stuffed oreo.

10. Last thing you drank?
Water.

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
I'm more of the heart breaker type.

12. Who came over last?
Ben.

13. Are you happy right now?
Yes.

14. What did you say last?
I can't remember.

15. Where is your phone?
Right next to me.

16. What color are your eyes?
Blue/green.

17. Are you left-handed?
That I am not.

18. Spell your name without vowels:
nn Lr Wtts.

19. Do you have any pets?
A tabby cat and an airdale terrier mix.

20. Favorite Vacation?
The beach or the mountains. I can't pick one over the other, it just depends on my mood.

21. What do you dislike currently?
The fact that I have homework I need to be doing.

22. What are you listening to?
"Different" by Acceptance.

24. What is your favorite scent?
Cedar wood.

25. Who makes you happiest?
Erin Parsons.

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sitting in a McDonalds parking lot, having a deep conversation over dollar snack wraps with Sam.

27. When is your birthday?
October 22, 1991.

28. Who has the same phone as you?
Hannah.

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
It's been a while.

30. Do you read your horoscope?
No.

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Light Years.

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
I wish it were longer.

33. Do you bite your nails?
No.

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
A few pieces. Of course, my definition of "expensive" may be different than others.

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Would you like to ask that question a third time?

36. Myspace or facebook?
Facebook.

37. How fast have you driven a car?
75 mph.

38. Have you ever smoked?
Never have, never will.

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
English.

40. Do you have Verizon?
I sure do.

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
Musicians.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
I can juggle.

43. Favorite Song?
"Shoreline" by Deas Vail.

44. Do you like to sing at all?
I do.

45. Dream Job?
Photographer.

46. Where does most of your family live?
In North Carolina.

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have two 21 year old sisters.

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
I can be.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
I don't feel good.

50. Do you drink?
Nope.

51. Know any other languages?
French.

52. Ever write a coded message?
When I was little.

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
I sang at my cousin's wedding.

54. Do you have any children?
That would be a no.

55. Did you take a nap today?
I did, and it was wonderful.

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
I'm pretty sure at least five people at my school share my birthday.

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
Orlando Bloom, Colin Firth, Dabbs Greer, and several singers/bands.

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
No thanks.

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Tailgating. There's nothing I love more than pissing off people who tailgate me. True story.

60. Are you multitasking right now?
No.

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
No.

62. What is your least favorite chore?
Mowing the lawn.

63. Last place you drove your car?
My mom's house.

64. Ever been out of the country?
Sadly, I have not.

65. Where were you born?
Raleigh.

66. Could you handle being in the military?
Not at all.

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Not very big. I'm not a big fan of talking on the phone.

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
Wouldn't you like to know.

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Last night.

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Quite a few.

71. Are your toes always painted?
Pretty much.

72. How many piercings do you have?
Four.

73. What are you doing today?
The better question is, what DID I do. Well, I'll tell you. I did hours of homework, that's what.

74. Have you ever been gambling?
No.

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
Yes, I do.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
Many times.

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Nope.

79. Last thing you cooked?
Chocolate chip pancakes.

80. How's the weather?
It's dark with a chance of stars.

81. Do you e-mail?
Occasionally.

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Drop it in the toilet...

83. Last time you were sick?
This morning.

84. What states have you lived in?
North Carolina. But in a few months, I will be in Virginia!

85. Do you wish you could move?
Yes and no.

87. What is your dream car?
One that has a working lock system. If you know me, you understand.

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
Ha.

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
Boone.

90. Are you happy with your life?
I am. It's not perfect, but I've learned to overlook the imperfections.

mood.

spring is waking up the birds here.

Something needs to happen because I have nothing to write about. Go.

last one, i promise.

roadtrips.

why not.

Finish The Sentence
I love...	being done with exams.
Right now I want...	food.
I feel like...	crap.
I hate it when...	I care too much about what others think of me.
I fear...	failure.
I'm lonely without...	my friends.
I need...	my family.
Today I...	made a fool of myself and didn't care.
Tomorrow I'm...	going to see my best friend. Hopefully.
I just...	blinked.
I want to meet...	Chase Coy.
I'm hungry for...	anything edible.
I love it when...	people make me laugh.
I'm afraid of...	rejection.
I'm listening to...	classical music.
I'm wearing...	a VCU T-shirt and blue shorts.
I wish I was in...	Boone.
I want to get...	a nose piercing.
I can't...	wait to graduate high school.
I'm nervous to...	go to college. But at the same time, I'm excited.
My Mom thinks I'm...	mature for my age.
My Dad thinks I'm...	talented.
I'm happy when...	I play piano and guitar.
I'm sad when...	my friends disappoint me.
I'm disappointed that...	I didn't get into UNC. But I know that's not where I was supposed to go.

here in these deep city lights, girl could get lost tonight.

I might get to see my best friend tomorrow.

i want summer.

my hand hurts.

Ladies and gentlemen, I am officially done with my AP exams. In other words, school is going to seem very pointless to me until graduation (WHICH, by the way, is only 34 days away, including weekends). Now all I have to do is wait patiently for summer to arrive. Shouldn't be too bad. In theory, of course. But then I get to go to college! Like every other senior at school, I am more than ready to move on to a new chapter in my life and start over fresh. VCU, here I come! :]

mood.

the shoreline calls the sea, for simple words and company.

Darn you, writers block. We'll try again tomorrow.

tattoo.

I want a tattoo. This one to be exact.

finally.

DONE with my calculus exam. :]

quote.

" Bacon - the candy bar of meats. "

- Mr. Lamb

love your enemies.

Why is it that some people insist on tearing others down in order to make themselves feel better? It's childish and only shows just how insecure a person really is. Just something that bothers me. A lot.

"Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."

- Luke 6:27-28

happiness.

skies painted blue.

kit cat and snickers.

Today, my Calculus teacher showed our class the Facebook profiles he made for his two cats. Turns out, they have more friends than he does.

this is the last summer we'll have all to ourselves.

I am obsessed with this song.

Slow down

sunrises and sunsets.

I came to a realization today. I have a lot to say and have this weird burning desire to share my random and scattered thoughts with the world. While Facebook is somewhat good for this, I finally decided it was time for me to make a blog where I can write whatever I want. So here we are. Let the blogging commence.