art.

For those of you who are interested, here is the address for my art blog. There's nothing on it yet, but I will be posting pictures of all my works on here over the course of the year.

surfaceresearchartbyannie.blogspot.com

i miss home.

you'll come back, no need to say goodbye.

Art school shall be the death of me. Not only do I have to now manage two other blogs (not including this one), I have to complete 72, I repeat, 72 self-portraits by next week. That's just my art class. I have to finish a book and write an essay. Word of the week? Stress.

could someone please save us college kids.

Oh Lord, where to even begin. Let me tell you, first week of college and no internet to blog with equals lots of fail. And untold stories. Anyways, I'm not going to be one of those people who's all "OMG I LOVE COLLEGE!!!1!" because let's face it, it's not all that it's cracked up to be. Well, at least that's what I'm figuring out. Don't get me wrong, I love being at a new place and am doing a lot of fun things and meeting many awesome and interesting people, but still. I hate being away from home. I'm glad to have a new setting, but I miss my friends and family (and pets) like crazy. I wish I could just steal them all and take them with me to college. They'd all fit in my apartment, that's for sure. Ha. I realize I may be sounding pessimistic right now, and I'm sure my view of college will change with time. But for right now, I'm still getting used to the whole thing.

As for the apartment, it is amazing. It's spacious, clean (after three days of hard labor and no shower), quiet (minus the abusive screaming couple living next door. Oh, and the idiots above us who can't possibly hold off on their two-in-the-morning home improvement activities until the morning) but most of all, it's not a dorm. There's a good and bad side to this, I've learned. It's nice having so much more freedom, privacy and space than those living in a dorm, but I've found it's going to be a lot harder to meet people when I'm not around them constantly. I'm not worried about making friends, seeing as I've already made some, but still.

Today was my first day of classes. I only had one class this morning and it went very well. I went around campus yesterday with my roommate to find all our classes and make sure we wouldn't get lost. While we were in one of my buildings, we stopped by the bathroom where I engaged in a discussion with a random lady about how pointless it is to put nice chairs in public bathrooms. Turns out that was my professor.

Also, Sasha (my roommate) lost her Student ID card last night, so we walked around Richmond on these dark sketchy streets looking for it. Good news is, we found it. Bad news is, we got hit on by several frightening drunk men, got lost (thank goodness for iPhone GPS systems), and got water balloons thrown at us by some morons on our apartment building's roof. But it was all worth it - we got free T-shirts at the new gym. Word.

I will be constantly updating my blog with my many adventures in Richmond now that I have been blessed once again with the gift of internet. Until then, I'm going to go eat some disgusting college food.

pictures of my new apartment.

yay college life.

First off, I want to apologize for not being able to update my blog. I have no internet in my new apartment and have been desperately seeking a place that has free internet. Yay for Starbucks! Anyways, once my internet starts working again, I will post pictures and fun stories from the past couple of days. Bear with me, please.

confession number seventeen.

I'm sitting here packing up the rest of my things while crying my eyes out. Darn it, Annie. So emotional.

perhaps. perhaps not.

i must've done something right along the way.

Some things that have made me happy recently: moving into my apartment, music in general, new (cute) clothes, sweet texts from friends, catching up on my TV shows, reminiscing about old times, game nights with friends, spending time with my family, getting better at guitar (learning an F and Am chord, in particular), Skyping, photoshoots, various lunches and dinners with some of my favorite people in the world, and blogging.

Sometimes it's good to focus on all the good in my life rather than all the negative.

darling buds of may.

give me therapy, i'm a walking travesty, but i'm smiling at everything.

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?

No, thank you.

Does a kiss make you feel better?
Of course.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
I have not.

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
Before I get in.

What did you do today?
Too much. But it was fun.

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
Yes.

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
No.

Have you ever thought about your death?
Yeah.

Ever been in love?
Can't say I have.

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
Permanent relationship.

What is your favorite sport?
Either basketball or football.

What color is your shower curtain?
It's a plethora of many vibrant colored stripes.

Have you ever had stitches?
Yes, on my chin.

Did you believe that boys/girls had cooties?
Definitely.

Do you know how to use chop sticks?
I have my own creative ways of using them.

Lyrics stuck in your head?
None at the moment. Shocking.

Do you like the Red Sox or Yankeess?
I used to like the Yankees. Try not to judge me too much.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Hanging out with mom.

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
Mmm, we'll keep that private.

Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
I have not.

Have you ever run over an animal?
I killed a butterfly. It was plastered on the front of my car for a week.

What is your favorite cereal?
I couldn't choose if I wanted to.

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
I've always wanted to try it. Never have, though.

What are you doing right at this moment?
Listening to music and wishing I was even a smidge tired.

Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
Whatever they want.

Where's your favorite place to be?
Anywhere as long as I'm comfortable and happy where I am.

What's your favorite song?
"Shoreline" by Deas Vail.

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
Neither.

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
No.

Have you ever been skinny dipping?
Yes, on several occasions.

Have you ever been arrested?
That I have not.

Do you dream in black and white?
Can't say I have.

Do you talk in your sleep?
Sometimes.

Do you snore?
Not usually.

Are you a redneck?
No.

Funniest thing you heard all day?
An embarrassing story that Beth told me.

Have you ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
Can't say that I have.

What are you afraid of?
Loneliness.

i should be asleep.

this time i won't try to reach you, you're already too far gone.

let go.

Driving down a long and lonely road,

Wandering as far as my mind will go.

City lights flying by,

Blurring the life I'm leaving behind.

Where is this place I'm going?

Time will never tell.

I have to see a new place,

I wanna see a new face.

I'm screaming on the inside,

Waiting for the right time

To let go.

When I'm going to get there,

I don't know.

The sun is going down,

Distorting the world outside.

Shadows drifting past like dreams.

How did I let it get this far?

Nothing but time can mend

The moments I've spent broken.

I have to see a new place,

I wanna see a new face.

I'm screaming on the inside,

Waiting for the right time

To let go.

Can't you see I'm past the point

of breaking?

I want to turn this life around.

I have to see a new place,

I want to see a new face.

I'm screaming on the inside,

Waiting for the right time

To see a new place,

I want to see a new face.

Screaming on the outside

Now is the right time

To let go.

she's got white lights on her face from the bad ties that she just can't erase.

You're not sorry.

appreciate the small things in life.

we all are birds stuck inside our cage, covered up with grace.

Sometimes I forget that I am nothing without God. I go through life, facing the endless challenges it throws at me, thinking I can make it all on my own. I would be utterly helpless and alone if it weren't for his everlasting love and strength. I guess I just need to be reminded of that every now and then.

"But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble."

- Psalm 59:16

There's always something.

confession number sixteen.

I hate goodbyes.

confession number fifteen.

My new obsession - boxers.

confession number fourteen.

fly, i am trying to fly to leave it all behind.

Today, as I was packing up my things in my room to move to my new apartment, I found a bunch of old cards, pictures, and notes given to me by my friends and family over the years. Nothing feels better than knowing I'm surrounded by amazing people who love and care about me.

On a more depressing note, my room is slowly becoming increasingly more empty. My walls are all blank and my possessions are being replaced by piles of boxes. This whole moving experience is exciting for me yet strangely terrifying. It will be good for me though, I can feel it.

for erin.

confession number thirteen.

For the first time in months, I'm feeling confident about going off to college and living on my own.

i watched your lips move in wondering what to say.

I just woke up from the most bizarre dream ever. It was one of those dreams where it feels so realistic that when you wake up, you have to sort through what's reality and what's made up. The strangest thing about it though, was that I remembered everything and every word I said in the dream, which has never happened to me before. Hmm, dreams are very curious things.

let's give it a try, let's keep it the truth.

dear goodness.

The Brave Little Toaster is the most disturbing movie ever. Just saying.

confession number twelve.

show me a garden that's bursting into life.

I love Boone. Everything about it is just so calm and peaceful. The weather is definitely my favorite part about being here, though (well, besides seeing my best friend, of course). Today, I am enjoying random fall-like weather in the midst of this all too hot summer.

Life is oh, so good.

hmmm.

I'm thinking about doing one of those projects where I have to take and post a picture every day of the year. It sounds ambitious. Not quite sure if I could follow through with it. Any thoughts?