i'm painting it homesick because all that i love is behind me.

So, it's been way too long since I've last updated this. But seeing as my mind is reeling at the moment and there's no way I'm getting to sleep any time soon (as much as I want to), I thought I'd give it a go. It's odd just how therapeutic blogging can be. I doubt anybody even looks at this anymore (or if they did in the first place), but it's nice to just get out everything that's been on my mind. Just for myself.

For starters, I pretty much hate school. I'm losing all inspiration and drive for art. I know that's what I want to do with my life but I'm having a much harder time than I anticipated. Apparently that's just how it goes in art school. But I don't want to spend my next four years completely unhappy. It just isn't worth it. I don't know what to do at this point. I've been looking at transferring, but something inside of me is telling me that's not going to make things any better. It's not even that I hate VCU, it's just I don't feel that's where I was meant to go. Which is, if you have been reading my blog, the complete opposite of what I said earlier. Confusion at its best.

Unfortunately, I was going to post more, but my mind and my state of being are keeping me from doing so. Hopefully I will find the time in my busy schedule to update this more often. But we'll see...